This week was awful. This week has been a repeat of last. Still saddened by the loss of my two family members, and now also stressed at the thought of falling so far behind with my university work, I performed disappointingly at my group meeting this week and the meeting for me ended in running out crying. I’ve been a mess. I just wasn’t sure how to cope. The problem, really, is that I’ve never experienced such a lack of control over my emotions and over the completion of my university work, which is usually top priority for me. Desperate to stay on top of (at least) my weekly mgmt 300 assignments, I dove into the readings and the second reading by Clay (2010) particularly spoke to me. He suggested – in the reading and in the TED talk that I watched him present on the same topic – that in all decisions, I have to keep sight of my life’s purpose. “Your decisions about allocating your personal time, energy, and talent ultimately shape your life's strategy” (Christensen, 2010, p.49). How do I want to allocate my resources? I certainly don’t want to neglect my (remaining) family and I really don’t want to disrespect the memory of my lost loved ones by acting strangely and antisocially. Two weeks is enough crying and hiding. I’ve been burying myself in my job and neglecting what’s really important. I have been selfish. The reading reminded me that money is not all that important, but rather it's the opportunity to learn that takes the cake. I have three weeks before exams to turn this train around and get back on track, to allocate my time to the people and the things that will bring me the most joy; that what my great-grandma and uncle would have wanted. This course has been one of those: not to give you answers but rather give you tools to answer your own questions through reflection and that type of learning yields the most powerful answers (Christensen, 2010).
Christensen, C. M. (2010). How will you measure your life? Harvard Business Review, 88(7/8), 46-51.