This week , I have learnt a lot, but nothing from the readings. Why? Because I didn't do them.
From last week's reviews the suggestions were to include the readings in my journals, and yes, I do agree, however. I have to look for something to write about because I didn't do the readings and the reasons are endless.
Because this week was the first week of the simulation rounds, I felt in some sense I was taking on a leadership role in the group, My role in the group is CFO and up until Thursday, our group were waiting for answers from me for what we can and can't do. It was so much pressure. One night I sat down and had a good look at MikesBikes and really differentiated my role from that of the others. I discovered my role isn't to give others the green light on what they can do but to facilitate what each department wanted to do in order to increase SHV. This became evident to me at a later stage and by that time I had done a lot for the group which isn't a bad thing in terms of how much time I had spent on it, but it was in the sense where I didn't feel so specialised to make these decisions. From this experience, I feel like I was in some way taking on a leadership role as I felt like the group were relying on me in order to operate, however. I only think of this role as managing and not leading. This became a problem.
I was thinking to myself of ways to get around everyone being so reliant on me. I guess the solution was easy, I just told them, and they listened.
Leadership to me is something I have done in the past in sports teams and community programs however it was never something I enjoyed. I feel like the pressure to perform was greater than the idea of accepting criticism and developing. The idea of a leader to me is someone like Steve Jobs, someone with vision and exceptional ways of thinking. I don't think I possess that and that is something I have pondered this week. In saying so, I decided that I will continue doing what I am doing now, and making sure I keep everyone else in line with what I have in mind as my role. This may just help me think more about what I can do in terms of leadership to assist our team.