What is the problem?
After reading the two assigned articles, I was juggling whether I should write about our team's progression with the subsidiary or my purpose in life. But after re reading Christensen's reading and contemplating about the feedback from job applications, I finally realised that I don't really know what I want to do or my clear purpose in life?
How did I come across it?
Being the type of person who had pretty much planned her life out, and was determined to stick to that plan, and since things are not going accordingly all the efforts, pain, hard work and goal settings seemed like a waste of time. When I was accepted into the University of Auckland, I had one box ticked off from my bucket list of goals to success (what I thought at the time), but looking back, I have been so focused into university and grades that I forgot to take time off to think about what my clear purpose in life is and what I really wanted to do. "The choice and successful pursuit of a profession is but one tool for achieving your purpose. But without a purpose, life can become hollow." (Christensen, 2010). I was more focused on investing my time on initiatives that would result to immediate returns, instead of creating a strategy for my life and investing into initiatives that would be crucial for that long term strategy.
This is sort of similar to my experience with my mikes bikes team. But the difference is, at the beginning we had established a long term strategy, though we made many different decisions along the way but they were aligned with our strategy. We were tempted to change when ever we had our down times (because we wanted immediate returns seeing all the other team's share value go up) but we are now starting to see the returns though it took a while. But it terms of our subsidiary, I agree with Greiner's argument that "the future of an organization may be less determined by outside forces than it is by the organization's history" (1972). Though we wanted to help them succeed, we lost track in realising that they needed to change the way they made decisions instead of just helping them with finance (I think we need to dig deeper for the next round two last rounds).
How should it be done differently and what is my action should be taken?
I think that my time should be allocated more appropriately, there are more things important in life besides grades like family and religion. Thinking back, these were the two things that mattered the most to me before I met money and was so determined to get a high end job to get it (I thought that money was the measure of success). But now I think that success is measured by how many lives you have changed and by living life with no regrets. "I think that’s the way it will work for us all. Don’t worry about the level of individual prominence you have achieved; worry about the individuals you have helped become better people" (Christensen, 2010). Therefore, my clear purpose is yet to be discovered, all I need is time.